Arts and crafts has become a chore. It does not relax me as it use to. My mind is not at rest and it is hard to describe. Let see if I can tell you how I am feeling...
It feels like you are in a room trying to study for a exam. An exam that will determine whether you get a A or a F. If you don't pass this exam everyone will look down on you in disappointment. If you don't pass this test a room full of starving people would have to miss another meal and would slowly whither while watching a fat person stuff their mouth with your favorite food. Your life depends on this exam. The world depends on you passing this exam. And as you study every single day of every single hour; the loudest most obnoxious noise is trying to distract you. Baby's crying, cars honking, and people calling your name over and over again. As you try your best to study for this one test, you could feel your mind boil and melt and you slowly feel certain memories and facts slowly fade away.
That is how I feel. I am all alone in this room yet my mind feels like it is going on overload over nothing. I don't literally hear things but what I just explained is just a general idea of how I feel. The strange thing is, I have nothing to be stressed over about.
I feel that sometimes, its a feeling like I am letting someone or something down if I don't create something. Trust me on this...find the place that quiets the noise, for me its the junk shops, resale places, the antique malls or any other place I go to find ideas...go there and find peace
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